Blue Skies Tinged with Gray

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Lake Tahoe

Blue Skies Tinged with Gray
a Sestina
Iambic Tetrameter
Revised 8/19

This morning I painted my world in blue,
new days in a dream beneath clear azure skies.
I floated in mem’ries of life borne on waves—
the summer we spent making love by the lake,
when our love sang so sweetly of hours in the sun
and clear water soothed pain that I saw in your eyes.

More often was hope gleaming in those deep eyes,
clear mirrors of mys’try—not silver, not blue,
reflecting the brilliance of summer’s lush sun
this faith that I found in those cloudless, pure skies.
We washed away fear in our bay at the lake,
floating hand within hand on her cool, gentle waves.

Sometimes we are crushed by the force of life’s waves
and excitement can wane, dull the spark in your eyes.
Then return to those days of our love by the lake
to renew what we knew when we dreamt dreams of blue,
streaked with hues of Payne’s Gray as we looked to the skies,
adding depth to those moments of light in the sun.

Summer’s end soon drew near and our time in the sun
gave way to the wind, to the chill in the waves.
Autumn clouds came too soon, hiding blue of the skies,
cast long shadows on joy, dimmed the glow in your eyes.
Succumbing to dark, nature cast off her blue.
Thus we tasted the close of our days at the lake.

Arid sands took you far from our love by the lake.
In Iraq you would know desert dry, scorching sun.
Did that world of brown erase recall of blue?
Did you dream of the days we had shared in the waves?
Or did you forget, horror blinding your eyes
to all of the plans that we held ‘neath blue skies?

For my part, I still hope for the day when the skies
shall return you to me, to our love by the lake.
When you rush to my arms will the tears in your eyes
still be there as they were on that day in the sun
when you told me they called to you over the waves
and you walked from my life for the red, white and blue?

I still look to the skies, shield my eyes from the sun,
wait for days at the lake, for the calming of waves,
lose myself in your eyes, wrapped in dreams painted blue.

For dVerse Poetry Form Challenge–this month the form is the SESTINA. This is my second entry for which I did some revisions on a poem I had written a while back when De Jackson gave us a “blue” prompt. The sestina is a complex form but give it a whirl and link to dVerse where this will be open for one month.

 

is there not a correlation between the fragile and the beautiful?

Photo: Family Memory Book--V. Slotto

Photo: Family Memory Book–V. Slotto

when i hear the sound of pouring tea
i remember her—
the beauty of a love well-lived
cached ‘neath cascades of wrinkle lines
and scars.

i think of loss and hope
held close within the pages
of a musty mem’ry book,

of yellowed linen
edged with lace
that smells of lavender

of all that might have been
if not for war.

Posted for dVerse Poetics where we are asked to write of beauty beyond the physical.

 

War–Flash Fiction for Monday Meanderings

A medic squats beside the body. Concern etches his face, communicating the serious status of his patient. Sweat beads on his brow; he bites his lower lip.

The kid’s angular features distort into a painful grimace. I can’t see blood, but tears roll from the corner of his eyes. Lower extremities sprawl in an unnatural pose. I wait for a sign of life in the useless appendages.

Doug’s mouth hangs open, his eyes fixed on the screen of our new television.

“For this, we got HDTV?” I hurl the question into the unresponsive room.

Photo: dreamstime.com

Photo: dreamstime.com

In the upper left hand corner of the screen, I view a group of fellow warriors. Huddled in the cold, their breath escapes in wisps of fog. Arms encircle their frozen torsos; they slap themselves, teasing chilled blood into warmth, luring it to the surface. A surgeon’s suturing a scarlet laceration on a young black face.

Another group of guys trot out from base camp, bearing a stretcher. I watch them logroll the boy in the field, carefully immobilizing his neck. I wonder if he’s going to make it, or if he’ll spend his days imprisoned in his flaccid husk-of-a-body.

“It’s all about money, isn’t it?” I ask Doug.

“Of course it is. Everything we do is about money,” he answers and takes a slug of beer.

“So why do they try to pan it off as some ideal?” I ask.

“It is about ideals. It’s about freedom and courage. And heroes. We need our heroes.”

“So, some poor mother sacrifices her son for some obscure objective? Some American pipedream.”

“It’s not just about our country, Rachel. You know that. The whole world’s watching.”  Doug clutches a handful of chips and shoves them in his mouth. He continues, “We’ve got to let them know who’s in charge, who’s strong.” Tortilla chip fragments, soggy with spit, shower my tee.

I tear off a paper towel, dip the corner of it into my glass of water, and begin to clean my spattered bosom.

“Please don’t talk while you’re chewing; look what you did to me.”

Doug sees and a crooked smile fills his face. He reaches over and pinches my nipple peeping through the damp shirt. “Ah, good ol’ American freedom,” he says and trains his eyes back to the TV.

A flash of action darts across my field of vision. “Life’s different now,” I say. “We used to hear about things like this after they happened. Now it’s broadcast live. That’s not how it was when we were kids. We crowded around the radio to get our news.”

“Hummmph!”  Doug soaks in the real life drama, unfolding before him.

I grab my knitting.  “I can’t watch this anymore,” I say.

“Well just shut up, then.  I let you know what happens.”

Visions of the two grandsons we’d raised loom before me. Thank God they’re more like me than Doug, I think. They’d never get involved in this.

“I wonder what the boys are up to now,” I say.

“What do you think they’re up to?”

“Studying, I guess. The new semester’s just begun.”

“I know for a fact that Ernie’s doing the exact same thing that we are,” Doug said. “But I wouldn’t be surprised if Eddie’s watching golf.”

“So, why can’t we watch golf?” I ask.

Doug raises his index finger and leans forward, resting his head in the palms of his hand, elbows on his knees.

From the corner of my eye I glimpse another body splayed face down, unmoving. The camera pans to a close-up of Condi Rice. How can she let this happen? She’s a woman, for God’s sake.

Our country’s flag waves in the right hand corner of the scene. A buzzer sounds reminding me of the take-cover drills we had to do in grammar school.  There are no winners, I realize.

“Two minute warning,” the announcer calls. “Stand by for our half time report.

Photo Credit: nfl.com

Photo Credit: nfl.com

I couldn’t resist re-posting this short story that seems appropriate to the season. I confess I’ve developed a huge interest in football over the past few years, though I may be caught knitting during the game. Have a happy week, everyone–and don’t forget that the poetry pub at dVerse reopens today, the 6th, with Poets and Pretzels hosted by Brian Miller then Open Link Night on Tuesday. 

Go9’ers!!!

SALVATION Army–Monday Meanderings

Photo Credit: Deviant Art

Photo Credit: Deviant Art

In the background,
he strips thyme and rosemary from their stems,
into a stainless steel bowl.
The scent of herbs, apple pie and ginger
pervades the family room
where

he watches war unfold on A&E.
An enemy’s blood splatters the screen.
I block out the noise of contradiction,
search for words of love and peace
to celebrate the season in verse.

Music sounds an ending.
I raise my head to witness
a good guy die.
No winners here.

A fire dances in the hearth,
then Mozart fills the room.

Will it be in music
that hope will enclose our battered world?
Will winter snow
cover scorched land, satisfy sere hearts?
Will love supplant bullets,
peace settle in the crevices of wounds?

Bells ring at the entrances of a local Walmart
beneath winter solstice sun.

Photo Credit: Sacramento Bee

Photo Credit: Sacramento Bee

Concert on the Green

Photo: David Slotto

Photo: David Slotto

Couldn’t resist posting this short story in response to Gay’s Jazz prompt. Please don’t feel you need to read or comment…it’s just for fun.

Concert on the Green  (1400 Words)

His words toss me back into reality. Worries about my Kenny slip back beneath the surface.

I hate that fairway, he says. Mess it up as much as you can. They’ll have to do it over.

Yeah, that bunker’s a bitch, his buddy responds.

The disgruntled golfers sit a few rows ahead of us in the idling shuttle to the seventh hole at a local golf course, the concert venue. Close air stifles me. Trickles of sweat snake down my back, saturate my blouse. Body odor hangs in the aisle of the bus.

Jeff, my husband, shakes his head. I hope they fill this thing up soon. It’s hot.

The guy in front of us turns and scowls, as though we’re responsible for the weather.

Finally a couple of old duffs saunter down the aisle and take the last two seats. The vehicle shudders as the driver shifts into gear. Diesel vapors flood in. Conversation becomes animated–people speak of jazz.

We arrive and disembark. The unloading process is tedious as concertgoers heave duffle bags, lawn chairs, umbrellas and blankets onto their shoulders. A guard herds us into a long line where security officers rummage through our bundles and collect tickets. Our cabernet makes it through the checkpoint, camouflaged in Gatorade bottles.

We survey the lush expanse of grass, settle on a spot in the rough snuggled up against that sand trap the golfer hated.

Here, try this spot out. Can you see? Jeff asks.

I sink into a woven plastic chair. Perfect, I answer before a mammoth hunk of humanity takes his seat in front of me.

Wanna move?

No, I’m fine. I can hear. I plant a kiss on his sweaty brow. Do you miss him, Jeff?

He nods. This is our first year . . . His voice trails off.

We embed ourselves in our niche. It’s almost four o’clock – three hours to kill till the headliners arrive. KJZS, 92.1, plays in the background. The sun glares, daring us to chill out. Jeff sets up a beach umbrella in defiance.

I’m gonna get a beer, he says. Want one?

Go for it, I’m fine. I got water. My eyes follow him as he disappears into the crowd.

We’ll be okay, I decide, determined to enjoy myself at this first concert since our son, Kenny, went to Iraq.

Fans arrive in droves. They erect their camps and join the party. I people-watch and listen.
Behind me a couple argues.

You should have let her be, Ruth. She’s pissed and she’ll ruin the whole evening for us.

We couldn’t just leave her alone. That moron boyfriend of hers would come over. You know what happened last time.

She’s almost eighteen. She’s got to take responsibility for herself.

Not on my time, she doesn’t. And not on our money. As long as she’s under our roof she does what we say.

My son enlisted at eighteen, I think.

Well, she’ll spoil our date. We never have time by ourselves anymore. Why’d we even come?

I tune them out at the sight of a woman-girl sulking across the grass headed in our direction. She wears low-riding jeans and a flimsy magenta tank top. Her lower lip protrudes – a pout that looks like a collagen injection gone bad. She crashes into the grass behind me – as far away from her parents as possible – and stares out at nothing.

A group of gypsies blows in beside me. A woman fills the landscape. Five anklets on one leg – a silver one catches the sun, blinds me. She lights a cigarette. I choke. As she comes in for a landing, I view a gallery of tattoos – dolphins, daggers, a swan and Mickey Mouse. A voluminous kaftan strains to cover her girth. Yellow teeth and fingernails accent a sallow complexion. Long black hair, streaked with silver, hangs loosely.

Freedom of expression, it comes at a cost, I realize.

Jeff returns, eases himself into his nest. The plastic glass of beer he carries breaks out into a sweat. Chilled amber liquid glistens in the sun.

Take a look, I say, bobbing my head to the left.

You should let your hair go its natural color.

So you’d have an excuse for a girlfriend? No way, baby.

Go check out the vendors, Jeff suggests.

I spring up, stretching out my tightened hamstrings.

Can’t sit on the ground like we used to, Jeff says.

So it seems. I limp away.

A wisp of breeze licks my body as I wander through the vendor’s booths. Paintings in bold colors, beaded shawls, hand carved wood pieces catch my eye. Wine, beer, Thai food, Mexican and Italian aromas assail my senses and jerk my appetite into action.Scents of potpourri draw me to a merchant whose homemade candles are softened by the swelter of the summer day. I touch smooth tumbled stones she sells to conquer worry.

Hot out here, she says to me.

Yeah, I answer and remember my Kenny and his buddies in another desert.

I browse a few more minutes then retreat to our nook.

The smoke shifts, beckoned by the wind, which gusts from the east. It picks up momentum and storm clouds gather over Fallon.

I’m gonna go get something to eat, Jeff says.

Get me something, too, I ask. Anything, but not too much. He leaves in search of spoils. My hunter-gatherer husband.

While he stalks our prey I follow the activity on-stage. Sound system and lighting techs scurry about like ants, setting the scene for the performers. The collagen queen behind me—still sullen—hasn’t said a word to her parents. They’re not speaking to one another either.

The Bohemian gal reigns from her throne. Her assistants – three younger men – bring her food and drink and light her smokes. She doesn’t budge, other than to lift a glass of wine to full-bodied lips.

A waft of garlic proclaims Jeff’s return. He hands me a plate of pasta with meatballs and garlic bread. I grab a fork and shovel it in to the beat of a local group that has a chance to strut its stuff. A redheaded, freckled fiddler from Ireland, some other mother’s son, zings his tune across the fairway.

It begins to rain. Droplets pound the crowd but fail to dampen moods. My warrior pulls out an immense royal blue painter’s tarp. We snuggle in, cuddling together in comfort.

The performance starts, right on time. The crowd engages as David Sanborn emerges from the audience playing a sustained B flat on his sax. When he reaches the stage, cacophonous applause greets him. The crescendo of noise intensifies as percussion, keyboard and guitars join the mix. Earth vibrates. Resonance soothes the sun and it begins to sink in the west. Menacing clouds amass: billowing black bunches of grapes. My protector says, We’ll be okay. The wind is blowing east again. The darkening sky is backlit with periodic bursts of diffuse light.

Tattoo Woman sways and shakes and twirls her way through our space. Jeff ogles her as I listen to Rick Braun’s trumpet wailing Kisses in the Rain. I soak in sounds and sight and think of my son and squeeze his father’s hand. Time rolls by, undulating like the cloud formations above.

Lightning moves closer. Dave Koz announces, You don’t mind if we skip intermission, do you? We didn’t. The fear-filled begin their exodus. We’re not gonna to get the whole concert, Jeff tells me.

Okay by me.

Three pieces later Koz yells: One more song.

Listeners clamor, More, more!

He begins Lullaby for a Rainy Night. The entire ensemble blends in. The mob mellows and listens intently. Braun says goodnight for the group, but they return for an encore, encouraged by persistent applause and shrill whistling.

Wayman Tisdale steps up to the mike. He gives the crew a sign and they begin to play as he belts out Rainy Day Woman.

Tattoo Woman arises from her stuporous state and begins to gyrate. She arches toward the footlights as though Wayman’s singing to her alone. A cigarette hangs from the corner of her mouth, red wine swings in her left hand, reflecting shafts of light from the stage.

It’s then I see the piercings. Skylight flashes on silver, glistening through the sheer fabric.

Oh my God, her nipples! I poke Jeff and motion with my eyes. He scrounges in his back pocket for his camera, and then scores his subject, aiming from the hip.

The camera flashes.

Lightning flashes.

Her nipples flash.

The concert’s over.

The war goes on.

This is a short story I wrote almost ten years ago during an Smooth Jazz concert that used to be held on a golf course here in Reno each year. I people-watched and wrote notes, so that the characters and the concert were real. The fiction part is the interjection about having a son in Iraq and the lightning strike hitting the woman’s nipples. The piercings were the real thing, though!

Photo: David Slotto

Photo: David Slotto

War Letters–NaPoWriMo Day 5

The Letter

NaPoWriMo’s prompt for day 5 asked us to respond to a poem written by another NaPoWriMo participant. I’ve chose this one, written by Mike Patrick: http://thepoetsquill.wordpress.com/


Elizabeth, I Love You
by Mike Patrick  2011

From his pack he drew his ink,
a lone parchment and a quill
and laid them out beside him
in the mud upon the hill.

Moments before, he’d felt it;
with a thud the bullet struck,
dropping him onto the ground
where he lay there in the muck.

The cannons roared about him,
and the Minié balls whizzed by,
as he penned his last letter,
for Elizabeth’s goodbye.

Elizabeth, I love you,
and this heart within me cries
for the sight of you again
and the light within your eyes.

So young we were when married,
yet you made the perfect wife.
We didn’t know the drums of war
would bring agony and strife.

You placed a candle, facing south,
from the highest window sill,
to guide me when I return,
if should that be our God’s will.

This war that kept me from you
now forever keeps me here.
The moments which are passing
are the last for me my dear.

I pray you’ll find another,
Your life cannot be as one.
Blow out the guiding candle;
remember me to our son.

Elizabeth’s Letter
by Victoria Ceretto-Slotto 2011

The letter that you sent to me
I gave our son today.
The years have fled, but you were close.
Now, he must go away.

I never thought my heart would mend
the day I read your words.
But, for his sake, I did survive.
The years passed in a blur.

Eventually, I found someone—
the heart has room for love.
Our child knew that his father
was caring from above.

To him you are a hero,
he wants to be like you.
You would be proud of how he’s grown
to value all that’s true.

I’ve known a love like yours, my dear,
and then to have another—
More blessed am I than many
as wife and friend and mother.

Like you, his dad, our son is strong
and cherishes liberty
for which you gave your life, your all
so that we may all be free.

Today our boy must go to war–
your letter in his pack.
Another candle’s burning now.
Please guide him, bring him back.

Check out NaPoWriMo where poets everywhere have accepted the challenge to write a poem a day during the month of April, National Poetry Month: http://www.napowrimo.net/

“Worth Dying For”–Big Tent Poetry

Veterans plot in winter

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Submitted to Big Tent Poetry: http://bigtentpoetry.org/

Worth Dying For
A Tribute to Veterans World-Wide

Well-being of our children’s life,
Our freedom to decide,
Right to believe in what we will,
The truths we hold inside.
Here are some things that will abide.

Death is not the end,
Your power lies in choice.
Inside the meaning of your life find
New strength within your voice
Gives glory to your dying.

Fight bravely for your cause—
Our faith in all that matters,
Redeem the future.

This weeks prompt was inspired by a book title on the NYT’s Best Seller list: Lee Child‘s “Worth Dying For.” I haven’t read this, but have read a couple of his fast-paced suspense/thrillers. They are entertaining page-turners if you enjoy the genre. The title tied in with this weeks remembrance of Veterans in many countries.

Flash Fiction: War

“War”

A medic squats beside the body. Concern etches his face, communicating the serious status of his patient. Sweat beads on his brow; he bites his lower lip.

The kid’s angular features distort into a painful grimace. I can’t see blood, but tears roll from the corner of his eyes. Lower extremities sprawl in an unnatural pose. I wait for a sign of life in the useless appendages.

Doug’s mouth hangs open, his eyes fixed on the screen of our new television.

“For this, we got HDTV?” I hurl the question into the unresponsive room.

In the upper left hand corner of the screen, I view a group of fellow warriors. Huddled in the cold, their breath escapes in wisps of fog. Arms encircle their frozen torsos; they slap themselves, teasing chilled blood into warmth, luring it to the surface. A surgeon sutures a scarlet laceration on a young black face.

Another group of guys trot out from base camp, bearing a stretcher. I watch them logroll the boy in the field, carefully immobilizing his neck. I wonder if he’s going to make it, or if he’ll spend his days imprisoned in his flaccid husk-of-a-body.

“It’s all about money, isn’t it?” I ask Doug.

“Of course it is. Everything we do is about money,” he answers and takes a slug of beer.

“So why do they try to pan it off as some ideal?” I ask.

“It is about ideals. It’s about freedom and courage. And heroes. We need our heroes.”

“So, some poor mother sacrifices her son for some obscure objective? Some American pipe dream.”

“It’s not just about our country, Rachel. You know that. The whole world’s watching.” Doug clutches a handful of chips and shoves them in his mouth. He continues, “We’ve got to let them know who’s in charge, who’s strong.” Tortilla chip fragments, soggy with spit, shower my tee shirt.

I tear off a paper towel, dip the corner of it into my glass of water, and begin to clean my spattered bosom.

“Please don’t talk while you’re chewing; look what you did to me.”

Doug sees and a crooked smile fills his face. He reaches over and pinches my nipple peeping through the damp shirt. “Ah, good ol’ American freedom,” he says and trains his eyes back to the TV.

A flash of action darts across my field of vision. “Life’s different now,” I say. “We used to hear about things like this after they happened. Now it’s broadcast live. That’s not how it was when we were kids. We crowded around the radio to get our news.”

“Hummmph!” Doug soaks in the real life drama, unfolding before him.

I grab my knitting. “I can’t watch this anymore,” I say.

“Well just shut up, then. I’ll let you know what happens.”

Visions of the two grandsons we’d raised loom before me. Thank God they’re more like me than Doug, I think. They’d never get involved in this.

“I wonder what the boys are up to now,” I say.

“What do you think they’re up to?”

“Studying, I guess.The new semester’s just begun.”

“I know for a fact that Ernie’s doing the exact same thing that we are,” Doug said. “But I wouldn’t be surprised if Eddie’s watching golf.”

“So, why can’t we watch golf?” I ask.

Doug raises his index finger and leans forward, resting his head in the palms of his hand, elbows on his knees.
From the corner of my eye I glimpse another body splayed face down, unmoving. The camera pans to a close-up of Condi Rice. How can she let this happen? She’s a woman, for God’s sake.

Our country’s flag waves in the right hand corner of the scene. A buzzer sounds reminding me of the take-cover drills we had to do in grammar school. There are no winners, I realize.

“Two minute warning,” the announcer calls. “Stand by for Super Bowl XL’s half time show featuring the Rolling Stones.”

(My response to Monday’s prompt–written 2 or 3 years ago.)